Wednesday, September 3, 2008

So....Life goes on....

Well....I don't have to move. I went to an agency, and they're willing to work with me. They are giving my landlord a considerable amount. SO.........He said it won't stop the proceedings, but he will not execute them unless he doesn't get this money.

I told Corey last night I needed some space. I NEED him to go for a while. He doesn't think we have problems. I am going to try to talk to him again tonight, and explain a little more..I need time to think...I need to think about where I want to go in my life, where I want my kids to go. I need to remember WHY we are together. I don't want to be together just because we have kids, or for the wrong reasons, ya know?? He hardly helps around the house, unless I bitch to get it done, and that's not right. Or when I ask I get, "I'll get to it" which never gets gotten to. He gets nasty with me at the drop of a hat....I'm tired of it....Oh, yesterday, he raked down the yard (yes he actually did something!)

We gave our pups away. I feel so bad for splitting them up, but I know they're in good homes. My friend Tina took Violet and My mom took Sunny. I know they will both care for my "bad eggs." I feel bad because I know they just don't understand.

One of Connie's friend's Mom's and I took a walk on the canal the other night, and we found out we have a lot in common! She made me realize that there is something missing in my life....something I had when I was younger, and might have to explore again. I'm not going to say anymore about that for now.....only that it was good to have someone to talk to, and some to listen....

I need to stay in contact with my friends and family. This is a hard thing for me to do. I get so wrapped up in what is going on here, I forget about the rest of the world, and I'm sorry. I still don't have it figured out, how to deal....I'm working on it.

Well....Off to wake the girls up and get them ready for school (which they LOVE!!!!) Have a great day!

3 comments:

amysalli said...

well i am glad that you do not have to move and that the agency was willing to help you.

glad the kids like school this year.

i am sorry that you have to deal with corey being an ass. seems like him and matt have alot more in common than they realize at times.

i hope you do realize that i am always here for you i am just a phone call away or an im away.

but it is good to have people close by that you can talk to in person. Just wish i had that here.

i know what you mean about having to figure out why you are with corey. i feel the same way . sometimes i feel like i stay married just because i have no where else to turn to go.

I guess we both just need to take it one day at a time here and be there for each other.

Starchild079 said...

I'm always there for you Amy! Thanks for being there for me!

Jody said...

Glad you don't have to move! ((HUGS))) I am sorry things are going rough with Corey yet again (ugh). Remember you can email me or IM me any time (even if it says I am not online because I just might be invisible. But you are always welcomed to IM me). ((HUGS). I know I am so far away and only an Internet friend but you can always talk to me :).